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Infamous Impostor
I don't know if I should be grateful or hateful, but life gave my a heck of a present for my birthday this year.

@темы: C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor

He wasn't just the best kiss of my life, he was the person who saved my heart from breaking today. He also reminded me of that inexplicable way life sometimes works when you need it most. So, I believe. I still believe. . .

@музыка: Queen - Save Me

@настроение: ))


Infamous Impostor
Whenever I'm down and my whole world is torn apart the only thing that keeps me going Queen. It is something no one can ever take away from me.)

@темы: C'est la vie, and so it is


Infamous Impostor

Мне очень повезло с братом, который увидел что я плачу, обнял меня, сказал что всё будет хорошо. А на самом деле, конечно не будет хорошо, по крайней мере это не будет хорошо. Будет плохо, а потом будет ещё хуже . . . А уже потом конечно же станет легче, только этого будет очень и очень плохо.


@темы: and so it is


Infamous Impostor

I don't like the thoughts that wander through my mind,

I can't see: that darkness makes me blind . . .

@темы: just a thought


Infamous Impostor

@темы: Anniversario


Infamous Impostor
And that was the biggest mistake of her life.
7:33 AM 09/21


Infamous Impostor

God, I forgot what it feels like to say something out loud; to be your own person; to be someone who doesn't just do right or wrong, who isn't just a sinner or saint; but to think. To matter. To breathe. To feel. To feel like . . . even though it's wrong and absolutely outrageous. To be. To be someone in pain. Here and now.

And yet, somehow, it still feels like none of it matters; that it's all just a big pile of no-no nobody cares about. Not even you. What difference does it make if even you, yourself, think that it's bullshit? Meaningless? Hollow? But it's never that way. At least, not until the very next morning when, no matter how you still feel about it, it seems like nothing. And maybe . . . maybe it is N-O-T-H-I-N-G? But then again . . . if it all is just nothing, what else is there to live for?


Infamous Impostor

They say home is where your heart is . . . I don't have a home. I DO NOT FUCKING HAVE A HOME! My goddamn heart is torn apart. It's shattered in pieces . . . pieces that cannot find a goddamn place to form a heart . . . to feel like HOME. To feel like home. HOME. Just a goddamn h-o-m-e. And I have to live with that. Alone.


Now that I'm reading this post, a wise voice in my is telling me: Oh, but you do have a home, dear... ;)


01/02/2012 4:09 AM


Infamous Impostor
Running blind.

@темы: C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor
Once you in the system, it will always find you and bite you right in the ass.

@настроение: *sigh*

@темы: C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor
How can one know and understand that without losing one's sanity?

@темы: C'est la vie, EW 101, and so it is, coming someday, delusion of possession


Infamous Impostor
Hi Gala,

Thank you for the kind note. I'm glad you found the class rewarding (that's a better word than horrifying, right?). And I'm glad I added you to the roster on the second day of class. I appreciated your lucid contributions to class discussions and the discussions we had after class.

Your essay will be waiting for you in my office. I'll see you in

Best wishes,


@настроение: счастлива

@темы: HDA


Infamous Impostor
Either shit or get off the pot - a false dilemma by all means. Can one get off the pot and still shit? Certainly. Can one stop shitting? Eventually. . .

Still, what does not make sense to me is that it is that much more complicated than that. Always. Always that. . .

@музыка: Billy Joel - New York State Of Mind

@темы: just a thought


Infamous Impostor

Miserable anger is better than zombie happiness. At least the former is real.*

*doesn't mean that both aren't depressing. ideally, there's got to be more to life. realistically . . . realistically speaking, all these ignorant people are pathetic. but then again . . . aren't all?

@настроение: disillusioned

@темы: C'est la vie, just a thought


The Power of Tokenism

Infamous Impostor
Can you hear that? This is the sound of your freedom being tortured by "democracy."

@настроение: cynical

@темы: EW 101, just a thought



Infamous Impostor
Hi Galina,

We didn't hear from you and the official deadline has passed for you to either accept or decline your prize – two (2) tickets to the Red Carpet Premiere Event and a screening of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 in New York City on July 11, 2011.

We are extending the deadline for 24 hours for those of you who may have been traveling over the July 4 holiday weekend. Please let us know if you are going to attend or decline this prize NO LATER THAN NOON (EASTERN TIME) WEDNESDAY, JULY 6. Failure to respond will result in the disqualification of your entry.

•If you would like to attend the event, please send an email to harrypotter@mkpromosource.com by 12 Noon Eastern Time on Wednesday July 6th
oSubject line should read “Harry Potter Sweepstakes” and the message should read “I (First Name, Last Name) accept this prize.” Also, please include your guest’s name and their relation to you as well as the email address you used to enter the Sweepstakes.
•If you are unable to attend and wish to decline the prize, please send an email to harrypotter@mkpromosource.com by 12 Noon Eastern Time on Wednesday July 6th to let us know so we can award the prize to an alternate winner.
oSubject line should read “Harry Potter Sweepstakes” and the message should read “I (First Name, Last Name) decline this prize.” Also, please include the email address used to enter the Sweepstakes.

This is your final notice. No further extensions will be granted. Please respond by the date and time noted to claim your prize or your name will not be on the RSVP list and you will not be able to attend the Red Carpet event or screening on July 11. Thank you.

@темы: C'est la vie, DM


Infamous Impostor
I can never understand people who arrange a jigsaw puzzle and then throw it away.

@музыка: Иванов - Боже, Какой Пустяк

@темы: just a thought


Infamous Impostor
What was the whole point anyway?

@темы: and so it is, C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor
It's only fair for me to say that I haven't had any epiphanies for quite a while now. I do not see it happening in the nearest future, but I do, however, hope that it changes soon. I guess, what I wanted to say here is that life in itself is nothing; it's always been people, books, music, and even movies to inspire and lend wings to me to fly. Fly... I forgot how it feels like to be taken places, seeing things beyond imagination. It's sad, but I know it's still somewhere deep inside me: all I need is a little push. A push from a cliff, perhaps, and a fall to get me right where I belong: buried deep in the cold ocean of clairvoyance.


by Edna St. Vincent Millay

To what purpose, April, do you return again?
Beauty is not enough.
You can no longer quiet me with the redness
Of little leaves opening stickily.
I know what I know.
The sun is hot on my neck as I observe
The spikes of the crocus.
The smell of the earth is good.
It is apparent that there is no death.
But what does that signify?
Not only under ground are the brains of men
Eaten by maggots.
Life in itself
Is nothing,
An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.
It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,
Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.

And I miss seasons, too. Do not tell anyone)

@музыка: Stereophonics - Bright Red Star

@настроение: nostalgic

@темы: delusion of possession, and so it is, C'est la vie

cognitive dissonance