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04:58 

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The perfect day. Well, almost.

It seems to me, though, that from now on every single day spent in this hell hole here will be perfect :) I really hope that I won't be using "C'est la vie" tag, instead I'll be using the one below)


@настроение: tired)

@темы: and so it is, DM

23:45 

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I wrote a long entry about my past and my present, and I don't think I'll post it. Ever. It seems to me that none of it matters anymore, although it should. I can only say that no one should ever give up their dreams and settle for something smaller just for the hell of it, even if the situation is most likely to be doomed. There are so many things in life worth living for; worth waiting for; worth going through a living hell, because in the end you start appreciating things even more! I don't know if I should mention it, but I wanted this to happen so badly, and it hurt so much, that one day my heart just stopped. Literally. I'll never forget that night, and I'll never forget "My blueberry nights", because it made me feel the gamut of wonders this life is filled with, and the fact that I wasn't a part of it, and most likely wasn't going to be, it broke me. I remember writing a letter to my mom, and then it all went dark. I heard my mom's voice telling me that it would eventually turn around and although my faith in life was broken, hope brought me back to life. And hope is the most tricky and deadly thing to continue living with.

I wanted to leave this place, so I could finally be whoever I wanted to be. As of now, I'll be leaving this place to be no one but myself. And I think this is the greatest reward one can get. I don't know, I cannot wrap my head around it yet... So, here it goes: Меньше, чем через полгода я уезжаю в США. Hah, still doesn't sound believable enough), but it's true! It really is both a giant leap and a small step for me and family. Surely, we've come so far, but we still have got so far to go. It means that this is probably my last summer here, with my friends (well, for at least a very long time); it means that I'll be listening to THE song on a plane, knowing that I made; it means that soon enough I'll be caught up in dilemmas like trying to decide whether I should paint my room blue or red; it means that I'll have a life-time of anniversaries, because 18th of June has been made an unofficial holiday; it means that the four letter word that I was so desperately striving for, is no longer a blurry dot somewhere on a horizon, and, most importantly it means that I can put my life off stand by and start living it like there's no tomorrow. It's all up to me now and I'm thrilled about the thought that soon enough I'll be able to say "The world is my oyster".

 

You know, whenever somebody was leaving, somebody important, I always got that image in my head from Aladdin cartoon, the one where Genie is about to leave. I felt all the sadness in the world like Aladdin did when he heard him saying "...посмотрю на мир.."(. Right now I feel like both of them, and it makes me sad, because Aladdin represents not only me, but my friends whom I'll cherish for the rest of my being no matter what, because if it weren't for them... I dunno, I just have so much love for all of you). Sure, I'll make friends there, but I really mean it when I say this: none of them will ever replace you, because together we've gone through so much that nothing and no one will ever live up to what we have.

 

"I'm history! No, I'm mythology! Nah, I don't care what I am, I'm free!" © Genie

 

And I am... I am finally free! :)

 

 


@музыка: John Travolta & Nikki Blonsky - Welcome to the 60's

@настроение: live love life

@темы: C'est la vie, HDA, and so it is, quotes

04:50 

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I can't write, hell, I can't understand what I'm feeling right now. I don't completely realize what happened. I guess it's like I got shot with a bullet filled with astonishment so overwhelming that I can literally experience my whole life flashing before my eyes. And... I guess, whenever I'm ready, if I'm ready, I'll sit down and write a comprehensive entry... entry about Life.

You know what the say that if something is not happening to you, it means that you're just not ready for it. We've come a long way... It eventually came around, and it's time for me to say "Hello", so I'm saying it): Hello Life, you know what? I love you and will always love you no matter what.


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@темы: Мысли вслух, and so it is

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20:35 

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I noticed my brother arguing in English like there's no tomorrow with a redhead tennis player from his group, and it made me smile. :) It looked so incredibly adorable, and the fact that he's denying the whole thing and trying to hide his own smile makes it even more adorable. :) Way to go, bro. It's always the simple things in Life we forget...

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@темы: and so it is, DM

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00:21 

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We never know the worth of water till the well is dry. I guess, it's a good thing that Life gave us time to realize that before it was too late. I was always scared that I wouldn't get a change to tell her everything that had been on my mind, but I did and it's behind us now. Obviously, past cannot be changed, and I'll never be the person I could've become, but it doesn't matter, because there's always future that never fails to change everything. So, Happy Birthday, Mom. I really hope I see you someday soon.

P.S. I ought to say that this world is full of amazing people around us, strangers even. I'm really glad that the more I live, the more evidence supporting this fact I obtain. It makes me appreciate Life even more, and maybe someday I'll even say "I Love the Life I Live". As of now, I'm just happy I'm alive. :) Aren't we all?)


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@темы: and so it is, HDA, DM, C'est la vie

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23:13 

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23:13 Simply perfect =)))

 

Итак поехали. Лисье озеро:

 

Стоит выбраться куда-то с Левкой, заблудиться, или просто застрять где-то in the middle of nowhere (or is is now_here :eyebrow: ) ... Как я себя заебала своими оффтопиками, кто бы знал. Anyway, как из ниоткуда обязательно появится какой-нибудь благодетель(ница) to rescue our sorry asses. The funny thing is that these people are both loaded and virtuous, which is something you don't see often these days. This time it was an old man, listening to some awesome French lounge music, driving a Mercedes, that offered us to hitch a ride. I don't know, if you ask me, these things are tiny teeny miracles that don't happen everyday. At least this is how I see it :) Что касается непосредственно самого мини похода, то очень порадовали добрые и благосклонные кентавры, что тоже из области фантастики и метафизики. Да, и конечно же: скажи кто-нибудь Агате Кристи о том, что много лет спустя кто-нибудь сумеет переплюнуть её гениальное произведение "10 негретят", то она бы рассмеялась в лицо, но сегодня увы, она вращалась в своём гробу иже на вертеле, подгоняемая призраками 20 негретянок с волшебным зельем. *о хоспади ©* :lol: Я не могу эту запись писать... :lol: НЕ_МО_ГУ!

 

Ладно, могу могу. Далее было празднование официального дня рождения Жени у Ванички в баре, где все придавались воспоминаниям о неофициальном дне рождения. (chuckle) It really was very *um, how do I put it the right way?* ironic and ambivalent of me, to write an entry, stating that I don't need to drink to get crazy and then the very next day to go to the bar to get drunk :gigi: *Uhhh, what a crazy world of my own I'm living in.* The second most ironic thing was that alcohol didn't work on me! Not even close, although we drank (well, I was practically forced to) some pretty darn deadly stuff on a pretty much empty stomach. Not even close! What the fuck, may I ask? Мистика, мистика... Очень порадовала гениальная фраза, я бы даже сказала, эстонская народная мудрость, которая глянула на тбилисскую, и молвила "Каждый сходит с ума по-своему". So simple, so true and the best thing is, she wasn't talking about me! *smug as hell, coz looks like I was more or less adequate today* All in all, it truly was a great day. An incredibly meaningful day, I must add. Symbolic too, in a way, but I say we go ahead and skip that part of the story ;)

 

Another interesting thing (among all those theories about choices, quantum physics and Schrödinger's cat), was the Lighter allegory. It has at least two very important points. And last, but not least: we just need to learn to appreciate Life's helluva sense of humor :)


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@темы: and so it is, WW, MHP, HDA, EW 101, DM, C'est la vie, quotes

20:09 

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15:40 

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I got so caught up in that blasé universe, that I forgot to mention one odd detail from yesterday. Whenever I went, all the small streets, recluse places, and Rustaveli st. itself, it was like G's scent was following my everywhere; it was all over the place. I can't explain it, but it seemed like yesterday the whole city smelled like his unique perfume; his very own brand of scent. I don't know if he's still here, though, but I sense that he is, and we'll bump into each other soon enough to reminisce about good old times. :)

@настроение: as of now - not bad at all

@темы: and so it is, EW 101, DM

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01:14 

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Elvis. Fun! Banana milkshake - yuuum! I can honestly cell my soul for the damn thing))). Poor waiter. LeOff - you're officially on my hate list.

Vanya's bar fun, up until around 11 pm, when I got the call. I don't know, I must be devastated, and probably I am too, but it's not showing. Then again, I tend to have a delayed response on things that actually concern me. =)

There's something else I'd like to add to this entry, but my head is killing me, so I'll take a rain check on the latter.

 

p.s. once again the day tongue was saved, thanks to the powerpuff girls changed circumstances. (chuckle)


@настроение: the mood is okay, but my state not so much

@темы: EW 101, DM, C'est la vie, HDA, and so it is, Игра слов

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04:56 

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- Шашки, шашки! А ты играешь партию Каспарова 19-нного года. ©


Шашки хорошие тем, что играются легко, непринужденно, а главное быстро: не успел закончить партию, как можно приступать за следущую. А вот шахматы... В шахматах ты смакуешь каждый ход; в шахматах архи-важна стратегия, и одну и ту же игру можно играть бесконечно, не задумываясь о победе. Последнее, конечно зависит от того кто играет, и с кем играть... А ведь бывает как в оскароносном мультфильме "Geris Game": играешь на самом то деле сам с собой, но удовольствия от этого не меньше, потому что твой противник непредсказуем и опасен, и вот тут же победа играет далеко не последнюю роль.

 

- О хоспади, какие к черту шашки и шахматы! Это же жизнь, которую надо проживать, а не играть в неё! - сказала я, и тут же добавила: мда, апогей лицемерия с моей стороны). Что за бред, какая к черту жизнь без игры!? Главное... Главное не забывать, что в жизни, в отличии от шахмат и шашек, ячейки не только черно-белые, и свободных ходов в ней гораздо больше.

 

А на самом то деле это ничто иное, как сематика. Всё бессмысленно, глупо, и просто... А вот это уже была грязная ложь)

 

 

off-topic:

 

Open Air. 2 stages our of three. Having fun like crazy people. Mafia at Czar's place. So much for me planning on spending the day in my pjs, curled up in my bed, and guess what - I don't regret it at all. :)

 

 

 


@музыка: don't know why, but i've got "Bohemian Rhapsody" playing in my head

@настроение: =))

@темы: Мысли вслух, quotes, and so it is, WW, EW 101, DM, C'est la vie

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