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Infamous Impostor
Whenever I'm down and my whole world is torn apart the only thing that keeps me going Queen. It is something no one can ever take away from me.)

@темы: C'est la vie, and so it is


Infamous Impostor

Мне очень повезло с братом, который увидел что я плачу, обнял меня, сказал что всё будет хорошо. А на самом деле, конечно не будет хорошо, по крайней мере это не будет хорошо. Будет плохо, а потом будет ещё хуже . . . А уже потом конечно же станет легче, только этого будет очень и очень плохо.


@темы: and so it is


Infamous Impostor
How can one know and understand that without losing one's sanity?

@темы: C'est la vie, EW 101, and so it is, coming someday, delusion of possession


Infamous Impostor
What was the whole point anyway?

@темы: and so it is, C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor
It's only fair for me to say that I haven't had any epiphanies for quite a while now. I do not see it happening in the nearest future, but I do, however, hope that it changes soon. I guess, what I wanted to say here is that life in itself is nothing; it's always been people, books, music, and even movies to inspire and lend wings to me to fly. Fly... I forgot how it feels like to be taken places, seeing things beyond imagination. It's sad, but I know it's still somewhere deep inside me: all I need is a little push. A push from a cliff, perhaps, and a fall to get me right where I belong: buried deep in the cold ocean of clairvoyance.


by Edna St. Vincent Millay

To what purpose, April, do you return again?
Beauty is not enough.
You can no longer quiet me with the redness
Of little leaves opening stickily.
I know what I know.
The sun is hot on my neck as I observe
The spikes of the crocus.
The smell of the earth is good.
It is apparent that there is no death.
But what does that signify?
Not only under ground are the brains of men
Eaten by maggots.
Life in itself
Is nothing,
An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.
It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,
Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.

And I miss seasons, too. Do not tell anyone)

@музыка: Stereophonics - Bright Red Star

@настроение: nostalgic

@темы: delusion of possession, and so it is, C'est la vie


Without further ado

Infamous Impostor
Dima is here. :)

@темы: DM, HDA, and so it is


Infamous Impostor

It seems to me that the most important and life-changing moments in my life are destined to be killing me with suspense: thousands of miles apart... just a phone call away.


P.S. uh, the irony of the timestamp...

@темы: just a thought, delusion of possession, and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor
Welcome to LA.

@темы: and so it is, HDA


Infamous Impostor

That's all, Folks. I filled in all the blanks, and by that I mean I wrote [almost] every single "coming someday" entry, and I think my headache is [almost] gone. Now, all I have to do is enjoy as much as I can those couple of days left with my dear friends and my loved one.


I'm leaving Tbilisi, Georgia this Saturday at 6 am. A couple of years ago at the International House, my teacher asked the class a question: "If you ever leave your country for good, what will you miss most?" Needless to say, the answer had to be out of the box and insightful. The only thing I could think of was my father's and my grandfather's graves, because, honestly, there wasn't a single thing, a memory or a person I would miss for the world. All I wanted was to get as soon and as far away from this shit-hole as possible, and there was nothing in the entire world that could ever change that.

Years went by in a blink of an eye and here I am... my whole world torn inside out. I have it all now: people who are dear to my soul; priceless memories, different from the ones that have been haunting me from almost the very beginning of my life; things that represent those people and all those memories attached to them. All of it makes my present answer to the question mediocre, but I couldn't care less. It gave my life a greater meaning; it changed its purpose and that's what really matters. I'm going to miss you, all of you, but mostly I'm going to miss us. And don't you people dare disappear from my life!

I know you know this, but I'm going to say this anyway - I love you, guys and I really mean it. For what it's worth, we still have our whole lives ahead of us, so trust me when I say it's not the end, but merely a "to be continued"...

@темы: and so it is, HDA, EW 101, C'est la vie, quotes, just a thought, delusion of possession, coming someday


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D invited the three of us over to his place. He was supposed to cook dinner, but his household wouldn't let him. I let this one slide, though.))) We drank a lot of wine, and there I was sitting, surrounded with people I care most, and it hit me: the pain, the fear, all of the emotions I didn't think I would have to experience. So I cried my soul out. In a baby voice, muffled with sobbing I said "Я буду скучать", and I will, and no words can ever explain how hard this is going to be for me; for us. Jane and I cried: we drank to bending the rules of Life, and breaking the stereotypes, saying that in the end it's all up to us: we are in charge of where Life takes us, and these thousands of miles don't have to change what we all have. And I do believe that with all the fibers of my entire being.

I love you guys, and I will always love you no matter what, because this special bond that we have is something that can never be erased. And, as long as for some reason (I honestly can't think of one) we don't erase it ourselves, we shall remain friends forever. I can say the same thing about D and me taking to consideration both friendship and romance parts. I will never forget how he kissed away every single tear in my eyes and on my cheeks...


At the risk of sounding cheesy and tacky, I'm going to end this entry by saying once again that I love you. I love you with all the essence of my being. I never thought I could ever say these words and actually mean them. I'm a different person now, and it's all because of you. I can never thank Life enough for having you all in my life.



@настроение: sad

@темы: coming someday, and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, Coming soon!, C'est la vie


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Here I am with an update. Well, with a brief update:


Art Box night out. The four of us. Jane and Sabik had a romantic dinner reservation at some fancy French restaurant afterwards. The most exciting thing about the day was G's official advent. It was almost like the Coming of Christ. I don't know what had gotten into him that he actually decided to show up, and frankly, I don't care. The important thing is, he came and I was absolutely thrilled to see him. So the cat's out of the bag, and that made G a living, breathing celebrity among those who've seen him as my imaginary friend.


D and G immediately hit it off, and I liked that. As for D, for once G was really happy for me. After everything I've told him about my other, I'm not even comfortable saying this, relationships - he too thinks what I have with D is something special; something unique.


I love him. I love D. He turned out to be not a perfect man for every woman on planet Earth, but the perfect man for me; perfect in every single way there is to it.

@настроение: =)

@темы: delusion of possession, coming someday, and so it is, DM, C'est la vie, EW 101, HDA


Infamous Impostor
Birthday of a lifetime. 24 people; people I was really glad to see; people who've played a significant role in my life for the past breaking point year. I'm not going to write about it, because every single part of it (the ones that I actually remember, being totally drunk and all) will stay in my memory forever. Fortunately, Alzheimer's doesn't run in my family. :)

@музыка: The Foundations - Build Me Up Buttercup

@настроение: happy

@темы: EW 101, HDA, MHP, and so it is



Infamous Impostor
Переходный год между моими самыми ожидаемыми годами - 21 и 23. Я уже успела убить частичку своей жизни - айпод, поплакать, поразмышлять о жизни, ещё поплакать. Надеюсь это последние слезы и смерть айпода в этом году моей жизни.

@темы: delusion of possession, and so it is, EW 101, C'est la vie


Infamous Impostor

Last night we met a group of young people from all over Europe, who were backpacking here, in Tbilisi. We had a small chat with them about living fast and dying young.

I'm not going to write about it, but I just wanted to immortalize that encounter in my diary, because it carries colossal significance to me... to us.

@музыка: Afterlife - Sunrise

@темы: DM, EW 101, HDA, and so it is, delusion of possession


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Fin.))) D - :bigkiss:

@настроение: tired

@темы: DM, EW 101, HDA, and so it is

cognitive dissonance