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Записи с темой: coming someday (список заголовков)
05:56 

The Imporance of Being. . . Gestalt

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Procrastinating.
Putting off.
Stalling.

It is inconceivable how much my life depends on the limited right combinations of words; words that once used to flow from my fingers, revealing the depth of my soul - a translucent reflection of my mind. It feels like somewhere along the line I have lost my touch. My ability to feel myself is disappearing, and numbness is taking over my existence.
It is ironic: I used to talk about numbness, and yet, when I look back I realize I knew nothing about it. I was alive, I was. . . myself. Somehow, the reality I am living in is trying to push me into a different direction, where thought and reason prevail over feelings. My soul is being ripped apart, its reflection worn out, bitter. . . stronger. (?)
I know the answers about life, but I forgot how to ask questions. I hope that one of these days is a turning point that will bring myself together: blasé, absorbed, whole.

@настроение: *sigh*

@темы: delusion of possession, coming someday, and so it is, MHP, HDA, C'est la vie

05:09 

Big Red

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A moment of piercing silence beetled over the room. He looked at me, smiling that candid and catching of his, and said the words I've been craving to hear for the past forever. You're getting in, he said.
The mere thought of that being possible turns the wreckage of my world upside down; it's what keeps me up at night, what wakes me up after only a few hours of sleep. It's the thought that gives me the support I need, makes me move forward, and strives to keep me from looking back.
You're getting in, Galina...
I'm getting in.

@темы: C'est la vie, DM, HDA, MHP, coming someday

10:59 

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13:18 

The Girl in the Field

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сон

@темы: coming someday

10:12 

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How can one know and understand that without losing one's sanity?

@темы: C'est la vie, EW 101, and so it is, coming someday, delusion of possession

10:29 

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Program For Torture Victims' First Human Dignity Awards Dinner

@темы: DM, EW 101, coming someday

01:57 

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23:10 

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That's all, Folks. I filled in all the blanks, and by that I mean I wrote [almost] every single "coming someday" entry, and I think my headache is [almost] gone. Now, all I have to do is enjoy as much as I can those couple of days left with my dear friends and my loved one.

 

I'm leaving Tbilisi, Georgia this Saturday at 6 am. A couple of years ago at the International House, my teacher asked the class a question: "If you ever leave your country for good, what will you miss most?" Needless to say, the answer had to be out of the box and insightful. The only thing I could think of was my father's and my grandfather's graves, because, honestly, there wasn't a single thing, a memory or a person I would miss for the world. All I wanted was to get as soon and as far away from this shit-hole as possible, and there was nothing in the entire world that could ever change that.

Years went by in a blink of an eye and here I am... my whole world torn inside out. I have it all now: people who are dear to my soul; priceless memories, different from the ones that have been haunting me from almost the very beginning of my life; things that represent those people and all those memories attached to them. All of it makes my present answer to the question mediocre, but I couldn't care less. It gave my life a greater meaning; it changed its purpose and that's what really matters. I'm going to miss you, all of you, but mostly I'm going to miss us. And don't you people dare disappear from my life!

I know you know this, but I'm going to say this anyway - I love you, guys and I really mean it. For what it's worth, we still have our whole lives ahead of us, so trust me when I say it's not the end, but merely a "to be continued"...


@темы: and so it is, HDA, EW 101, C'est la vie, quotes, just a thought, delusion of possession, coming someday

14:08 

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22:33 

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22:32 

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27.11.2010

 

D invited the three of us over to his place. He was supposed to cook dinner, but his household wouldn't let him. I let this one slide, though.))) We drank a lot of wine, and there I was sitting, surrounded with people I care most, and it hit me: the pain, the fear, all of the emotions I didn't think I would have to experience. So I cried my soul out. In a baby voice, muffled with sobbing I said "Я буду скучать", and I will, and no words can ever explain how hard this is going to be for me; for us. Jane and I cried: we drank to bending the rules of Life, and breaking the stereotypes, saying that in the end it's all up to us: we are in charge of where Life takes us, and these thousands of miles don't have to change what we all have. And I do believe that with all the fibers of my entire being.

I love you guys, and I will always love you no matter what, because this special bond that we have is something that can never be erased. And, as long as for some reason (I honestly can't think of one) we don't erase it ourselves, we shall remain friends forever. I can say the same thing about D and me taking to consideration both friendship and romance parts. I will never forget how he kissed away every single tear in my eyes and on my cheeks...

 

At the risk of sounding cheesy and tacky, I'm going to end this entry by saying once again that I love you. I love you with all the essence of my being. I never thought I could ever say these words and actually mean them. I'm a different person now, and it's all because of you. I can never thank Life enough for having you all in my life.

 

 


@настроение: sad

@темы: coming someday, and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, Coming soon!, C'est la vie

00:20 

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Here I am with an update. Well, with a brief update:

 

Art Box night out. The four of us. Jane and Sabik had a romantic dinner reservation at some fancy French restaurant afterwards. The most exciting thing about the day was G's official advent. It was almost like the Coming of Christ. I don't know what had gotten into him that he actually decided to show up, and frankly, I don't care. The important thing is, he came and I was absolutely thrilled to see him. So the cat's out of the bag, and that made G a living, breathing celebrity among those who've seen him as my imaginary friend.

 

D and G immediately hit it off, and I liked that. As for D, for once G was really happy for me. After everything I've told him about my other, I'm not even comfortable saying this, relationships - he too thinks what I have with D is something special; something unique.

 

I love him. I love D. He turned out to be not a perfect man for every woman on planet Earth, but the perfect man for me; perfect in every single way there is to it.


@настроение: =)

@темы: delusion of possession, coming someday, and so it is, DM, C'est la vie, EW 101, HDA

14:35 

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I'll keep this entry short. I went overboard, and came up with a romantic solution for just the two of us. Hot tub, candles, wine and ultimately the whole apparment to ourselves. And we couldn't be happier.

 

Later on, Jane and Sabik came by, had their own fair share of happiness and afterwards we all went out to grab dinner at Taglaura. I love you guys, it was one of those the time of my life days.


@настроение: :heart:

@темы: EW 101, coming someday, and so it is, HDA, DM

02:45 

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Double-date/Romantic dinner with D and J&S. Boys went to the Mall, bought groceries, and the four of us prepared an extraordinary dinner together. We lit the candles, sat in my room at the big table, D in front of me, drank wine. It was all so surreal to me, to us.

 

Later on we played poker. Apparently, my man is really good at everything. :heart:

 

After a while Lux, Lika, Leila and Gedi showed up, and so we decided to up the stakes, by drinking beer and playing twister. Gosh, that was so much fun. Afterwards we played Truth&Dare, and let me say this - Sabik, dancing YMCA under Lux's supervision was really something! Bravo, I didn't think he had it in him))). As for Lux, Lika totally blew his mind by handcuffing him to a chair, and placing ice-cubs under his shirt. You should have seen his face!

 

After everyone left, D and I had the whole night to ourselves. It was the most logical ending to the perfect day.


@темы: and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, coming someday

17:00 

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00:03 

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пиздец короче) столько всего навалилось написать))) как минимум 3 записи я уже насчитала. Жень, как только засяду дома - обязательно напишу, и без капслоков (chuckle)

Halloween. Cache.


@настроение: :attr:

@темы: DM, EW 101, coming someday

03:32 

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the time of my life

@темы: DM, EW 101, HDA, and so it is, coming someday

17:19 

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12:20 

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I had the most disgusting dream last night. Oh well, maybe, once I wrap my head around it, I'll give it a go. Meanwhile this entry stays incomplete.

@темы: delusion of possession, EW 101, coming someday, MHP, HDA

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00:12 

Infamous Impostor
Мцхета.

@музыка: Millenia Nova feat. Coppé - Prélude Au Porno

@настроение: scunnered

@темы: coming someday, EW 101, DM

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