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Записи с темой: c'est la vie (список заголовков)
12:55 

Infamous Impostor

A year ago on this very day I was the happiest person in this world. I had it all: close friends who went through fire and water with me; a loved one, who I was meant to spend the rest of my life with and make it "ours"; a bright and amazing future I had been looking for for almost 7 years; terrific memories and even more terrific expectations ahead. Yes, I had it all.

 

Today is my special birthday - 23/23. Today I'm the loneliest and saddest person in this very same world that once made me feel so happy and inspired. It feels like the end of the world, the only difference is that I'm alone in this apocalypse. I do still have a little faith: I want to believe that whatever happen - happens for a reason, because otherwise my life does not make any sense. I just want it to get better. I want to be able to feel that happiness I had a year ago. But the truth is, I'm so lost that I don't think I'll be found ever again.

 

 


@темы: C'est la vie, DM, HDA, and so it is, delusion of possession

10:50 

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23:51 

Infamous Impostor
I don't know if I should be grateful or hateful, but life gave my a heck of a present for my birthday this year.

@темы: C'est la vie

14:55 

Infamous Impostor
Whenever I'm down and my whole world is torn apart the only thing that keeps me going Queen. It is something no one can ever take away from me.)

@темы: C'est la vie, and so it is

01:10 

Infamous Impostor
Running blind.

@темы: C'est la vie

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13:59 

Infamous Impostor
Once you in the system, it will always find you and bite you right in the ass.

@настроение: *sigh*

@темы: C'est la vie

23:31 

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10:12 

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How can one know and understand that without losing one's sanity?

@темы: C'est la vie, EW 101, and so it is, coming someday, delusion of possession

04:05 

Infamous Impostor

Miserable anger is better than zombie happiness. At least the former is real.*


*doesn't mean that both aren't depressing. ideally, there's got to be more to life. realistically . . . realistically speaking, all these ignorant people are pathetic. but then again . . . aren't all?




@настроение: disillusioned

@темы: C'est la vie, just a thought

07:34 

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Infamous Impostor
Hi Galina,

We didn't hear from you and the official deadline has passed for you to either accept or decline your prize – two (2) tickets to the Red Carpet Premiere Event and a screening of Harry Potter and the Deathly Hallows Part 2 in New York City on July 11, 2011.

We are extending the deadline for 24 hours for those of you who may have been traveling over the July 4 holiday weekend. Please let us know if you are going to attend or decline this prize NO LATER THAN NOON (EASTERN TIME) WEDNESDAY, JULY 6. Failure to respond will result in the disqualification of your entry.

•If you would like to attend the event, please send an email to harrypotter@mkpromosource.com by 12 Noon Eastern Time on Wednesday July 6th
oSubject line should read “Harry Potter Sweepstakes” and the message should read “I (First Name, Last Name) accept this prize.” Also, please include your guest’s name and their relation to you as well as the email address you used to enter the Sweepstakes.
•If you are unable to attend and wish to decline the prize, please send an email to harrypotter@mkpromosource.com by 12 Noon Eastern Time on Wednesday July 6th to let us know so we can award the prize to an alternate winner.
oSubject line should read “Harry Potter Sweepstakes” and the message should read “I (First Name, Last Name) decline this prize.” Also, please include the email address used to enter the Sweepstakes.

This is your final notice. No further extensions will be granted. Please respond by the date and time noted to claim your prize or your name will not be on the RSVP list and you will not be able to attend the Red Carpet event or screening on July 11. Thank you.

@темы: C'est la vie, DM

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00:54 

Infamous Impostor
What was the whole point anyway?

@темы: and so it is, C'est la vie

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10:44 

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It's only fair for me to say that I haven't had any epiphanies for quite a while now. I do not see it happening in the nearest future, but I do, however, hope that it changes soon. I guess, what I wanted to say here is that life in itself is nothing; it's always been people, books, music, and even movies to inspire and lend wings to me to fly. Fly... I forgot how it feels like to be taken places, seeing things beyond imagination. It's sad, but I know it's still somewhere deep inside me: all I need is a little push. A push from a cliff, perhaps, and a fall to get me right where I belong: buried deep in the cold ocean of clairvoyance.

 


Spring
by Edna St. Vincent Millay

To what purpose, April, do you return again?
Beauty is not enough.
You can no longer quiet me with the redness
Of little leaves opening stickily.
I know what I know.
The sun is hot on my neck as I observe
The spikes of the crocus.
The smell of the earth is good.
It is apparent that there is no death.
But what does that signify?
Not only under ground are the brains of men
Eaten by maggots.
Life in itself
Is nothing,
An empty cup, a flight of uncarpeted stairs.
It is not enough that yearly, down this hill,
April
Comes like an idiot, babbling and strewing flowers.


And I miss seasons, too. Do not tell anyone)

@музыка: Stereophonics - Bright Red Star

@настроение: nostalgic

@темы: delusion of possession, and so it is, C'est la vie

11:53 

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11:43 

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10:23 

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It seems to me that the most important and life-changing moments in my life are destined to be killing me with suspense: thousands of miles apart... just a phone call away.

 

P.S. uh, the irony of the timestamp...


@темы: just a thought, delusion of possession, and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, C'est la vie

14:54 

Infamous Impostor

I tried writing about my new beginning in life, the one that I've been craving for for the past forever, but I can't do that. It's not me. I don't want to describe any of it.

I can only say that dreams and waiting for them to come true are far more intense and priceless, than experiencing them first hand after years of thinking you might never make it. It was nothing like I'd ever imagined. It wasn't special, or lifechanging or anything else: it was just the way it should have been. Even when I saw my family rushing towards us at the airport, as I'd started crying, I was crying for a whole different reason; for the same reason I'd spent my whole flight to Amsterdam with a handkerchief.

This is the only thing that is actually me - feel things, express emotions for all the wrong reasons. But hey, whatever makes me whole...

 

"Don't ever tell anybody anything. If you do, you start missing everybody."

So, I'll try to stay as quiet as possible, because otherwise I'll end up crying my heart out, and this is something I cannot afford right now.


@темы: C'est la vie, delusion of possession

23:10 

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That's all, Folks. I filled in all the blanks, and by that I mean I wrote [almost] every single "coming someday" entry, and I think my headache is [almost] gone. Now, all I have to do is enjoy as much as I can those couple of days left with my dear friends and my loved one.

 

I'm leaving Tbilisi, Georgia this Saturday at 6 am. A couple of years ago at the International House, my teacher asked the class a question: "If you ever leave your country for good, what will you miss most?" Needless to say, the answer had to be out of the box and insightful. The only thing I could think of was my father's and my grandfather's graves, because, honestly, there wasn't a single thing, a memory or a person I would miss for the world. All I wanted was to get as soon and as far away from this shit-hole as possible, and there was nothing in the entire world that could ever change that.

Years went by in a blink of an eye and here I am... my whole world torn inside out. I have it all now: people who are dear to my soul; priceless memories, different from the ones that have been haunting me from almost the very beginning of my life; things that represent those people and all those memories attached to them. All of it makes my present answer to the question mediocre, but I couldn't care less. It gave my life a greater meaning; it changed its purpose and that's what really matters. I'm going to miss you, all of you, but mostly I'm going to miss us. And don't you people dare disappear from my life!

I know you know this, but I'm going to say this anyway - I love you, guys and I really mean it. For what it's worth, we still have our whole lives ahead of us, so trust me when I say it's not the end, but merely a "to be continued"...


@темы: and so it is, HDA, EW 101, C'est la vie, quotes, just a thought, delusion of possession, coming someday

14:08 

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22:33 

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22:32 

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27.11.2010

 

D invited the three of us over to his place. He was supposed to cook dinner, but his household wouldn't let him. I let this one slide, though.))) We drank a lot of wine, and there I was sitting, surrounded with people I care most, and it hit me: the pain, the fear, all of the emotions I didn't think I would have to experience. So I cried my soul out. In a baby voice, muffled with sobbing I said "Я буду скучать", and I will, and no words can ever explain how hard this is going to be for me; for us. Jane and I cried: we drank to bending the rules of Life, and breaking the stereotypes, saying that in the end it's all up to us: we are in charge of where Life takes us, and these thousands of miles don't have to change what we all have. And I do believe that with all the fibers of my entire being.

I love you guys, and I will always love you no matter what, because this special bond that we have is something that can never be erased. And, as long as for some reason (I honestly can't think of one) we don't erase it ourselves, we shall remain friends forever. I can say the same thing about D and me taking to consideration both friendship and romance parts. I will never forget how he kissed away every single tear in my eyes and on my cheeks...

 

At the risk of sounding cheesy and tacky, I'm going to end this entry by saying once again that I love you. I love you with all the essence of my being. I never thought I could ever say these words and actually mean them. I'm a different person now, and it's all because of you. I can never thank Life enough for having you all in my life.

 

 


@настроение: sad

@темы: coming someday, and so it is, HDA, EW 101, DM, Coming soon!, C'est la vie

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